sometimes i just wanna cry.

because i don't know what i want.

i know what i want to be in the future.

i want to be a fashion/art director.

i want to be an eco artist.

i want to be a fashion filmmaker.

i want to be a fashion show producer.

i want to be harng.

i feel like an idiot.

im about to sleep but because someone ask me for help.

i willingly helped.

nice.

marilyn broke down today. like major.

thought it was some girl thang.

but turns out she had issues. such a pretty, talented girl yet so complex.

i guess turns out all great artists have some sort of issue.

just that they haven seen my issue yet.

period.

school has been busy.

other than schoolwork, i have NAF and adm student club.

and recently FAP from hall 8 has invited me to join them as a Publicity Officer.

should i?

i wanna help yuran but the canvassing and the vibe i get isnt really nice actually.

i can have all the free will to work on tickets n such.

but it can only get me that much.

NAF is a bitch because of the committee being too narrow minded and bluntly stupid.

school is fun because i have bitching buddies.

ya i should get back to work.

hmm.

so the void deck parteh - trashvolution was ok.

it sort of gave me the insights on who are my friends, and who are just plain suckers.

not giving a call/sms is seriously way disrespectful to the party organiser. and having another date is not an excuse too. lastly waking up late is totally unacceptable.

suck it harng.

buggers.

i'm still unable to find my mojo.

i think my 3D model sucked.

i just cant find the right vibe to it.

oh well.

i lost my mojo.

after 2 years of hiatus. today was my worst presentation by far.

no longer i can be fluid in my ideas and fluent in my speaking.

i need to find my mojo back.

today, my professor said (in regards to my 3d model):

'NICE COMPOSITION'

and he didn't comment on others.

=)

god. this is one of the most unproductive days i have felt.

even sleeping is more productive than this.

JC kids. shut the theme up seriously, what fantasy, what graffiti.

i kept silent most of time for the obvious reasons.

we don't sing the same frequency.

BUT SERIOUSLY, WHY JC KIDS COME TO ADM WHEN THEY KNOW NTH ABOUT ARTS, DESIGN, OR ANY SORT OF IT?!

goodbye.

finally the new chapter in my life has started.

school has never been this good.

its quite a culture shock i must say, getting to see so much new faces as compared to you knowing your bunk mates in camp.

this major! ranging from our favourite foreign talents to locals.

the bunk is pretty small i must say but i'll try to make do with it anyway the chapter is here and i cant wait to harng shine.